Life in the ’20s

Have you ever felt it difficult to swallow? Your eyes are filled with tears; you are unable or unwilling to cry, but your heart is heavy and you feel like choking. I don't know if we are destined to be that way, where we get all our unclosed traumas at one particular age, with career anxiety and existential crisis at their best. Welcome to your twenties!

I don't know— why is this generation so fucking complicated? We hate things that are simple and peaceful. We need noise and voice everywhere. We need validation and permission from someone. We give names to every damn thing—is that even necessary? There is not even a single day we pass without stressing, or even if we do, someone or the other is going to stress you out. You hate closed spaces but also the ones that are open. You hate those conversations but feel like you are left alone. All you want is to switch off your phone and just vanish somewhere.

I know it's the most important time of our lives. Figuring out your career for the next five years and settling down is important. But wait, we haven’t dealt with our own past traumas and breakdowns, and with a heavy heart, it's difficult to figure out what we want from our lives. Why did parenthood become so complicated? They want us to achieve everything fast; they want us to run at 12x speed. WE ARE NOT TROPHIES TO BE SHOWCASED TO ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS AND RELATIVES. So calm down. Again and again, we are in our 20s, figuring out a lot of things, and we know what to do and how to do it. And even if we don't, that's okay.

Conversations have become so broken nowadays. What’s more surprising are the twists and turns of someone’s life. Let me tell you, life has been fucking broken and complicated for every single human on this planet. Parental Issues, Childhood Harassment, Health Issues, and the list goes fucking on and on. The only question that arises in me is, "Why are all the traumas back now?" I had it before, but it never choked me like this. And everyone feels the same.

All we have is to run away somewhere and feel nothing. All we want is to feel nothing for a few days. Just nothing—no one questioning us or creating the fear of living at our own pace.

I know life in the twenties is pretty hard. We want Independence and Freedom and we want to have the right person to give all our love to. Yes, we need everything, and sometimes it's hard to be left behind when someone or another has it. But that's life to you, everything will come at you at the right time, the right moment, and the right place. Every suffering and pain will end and it will close to open for another.

Just a few steps for those out there, Keep going and love yourself a little bit more. You are worth it in some way or another; it's just that we haven’t explored enough. Take it slow, deal with every part of that unbroken piece, and solve it. You need closure and love again.

Thank you for reading till the end. More strength to you, and I am sorry for not posting lately. It's just that I lost my creative side for a few months and was focused on a lot of other things. Take care and have fun in your twenties because these are the things that will make you smile when you look back. Like, Share, and Subscribe (the buttons are below).